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Kistler's victim describes attempting suicide because of scam

04:57 PM PDT on Monday, May 21, 2007

By kgw.com Staff

The mother of one of Joshua Kistler's victims read this statement from her daughter during Kistler's sentencing hearing. The teen describes how she was duped by Kistler:

When I was 12 years old, I met a 15-year-old boy named Trevor Allen Weston online in a teen chat room on Yahoo.

He seemed sweet at first and was always eager to talk to me.

We became best friends, and then he started asking me to do inappropriate things over my webcam.

At first, I denied him. But after a while, he convinced me that it was because we were in love, and we couldn't be together, so what a better way than over the computer and computer. Things got very graphic then, and he taught me stuff that a 12-year-old should not know.

At this time I started cutting (myself) as an outlet to help me deal with all the stress I had. I thought that nobody at my school or my state would want to be with me, so I felt safer for having an online relationship.

I tried to kill myself when I was 13 years old, and I was put in a psychiatric hospital for five days.

Things went back to the way they were for a while, and then he told me his friend committed suicide because of me.

I freaked out, and I attempted my second suicide.

I went back to the hospital for eleven days and then to an outpatient program for a month, and then seven more months in a residential program. I was there when my mom told me that the love of my life was really a 30-year-old pedophile.

I gave my heart to Trevor and then some freak named Joshua Kistler ripped my heart out of my chest and threw it on a floor and stomped on it with a big grin on his face.

He took things from me that weren't his to take; things that no one has a right to take from another human being.

Luckily I was in a safe place, so I couldn't harm myself, but it did a huge amount of damage to me mentally and spiritually.

I, all of a sudden, didn't believe in God, because I thought if there was a God, why would he let this happen to me.

I had low self-esteem as it was, but that just made it worse. I started doing marijuana in October of 2005. It was even better than cutting in helping me deal with my feelings and the pain I had inside.

Last July I got locked up and ended up in a place, in a youth crisis center. I got out recently on the 5th, and I'm living in a foster home, which I like.

I need therapy because of all the issues that Trevor/Joshua has caused me and my mom.

He told me he had leukemia and that's why he didn't want me to see him on a webcam, so he sent me pictures of some other 15 year old boy. I am frustrated that I was used and sold like he did to me. I would like for him to pay for my past and my current therapy because me and my mom don't have the money to do that, plus I believe he is the one who caused a lot of my problems. Thank you.

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