It's taken 3 days, but I'm finally settled back into the rythmn of work. I came back to a desk that had 5 months of dust and grime on it. I had to move out some squatters in my tiny work fridge. I set up a calm, quiet space where I could pump.
And no, it's still not getting any easier, this whole 'back-to-work' thing. You know, what can I say? I'm trying to keep the negativity to a minimum. It's not like I'm the first and only woman to have a baby and go back to work. Believe me, I know that. And I am thanking my lucky stars that I get to leave her with Grandma and Grandpa during the day, who love and dote on her. But it's hard. I'm struggling with the adjustment.
I don't see enough of my daughter during the week. Yesterday, she went to baby music class with Grandma and I just got to look at pictures. She loved it. LOVED it. But I missed that moment with her.
We've shifted her schedule so I can at least rock her to sleep when I get home, but she's started this new thing where she cries the minute I'm out of sight. So now my husband simply follows me around the house carrying her while I put down my bags and wipe off my lipstick in preparation for a smootch-fest.
That's where we stand.
Everyone says it gets easier.
And for those of you who have emailed, tweeted, and commented... THANK YOU. It's so nice to hear from you-- those of you who think I should quit and be a stay at home mom and those who think I should stick with it because I will find that balance over time. And those who don't care either way, but just wanted to stop by and say hi. ;)
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